on self and predeterminism
is life all about being in a particular place at a particular time or can anyone do anything they set their minds to?
these two philosophical cliches have been rattling around in my mind lately. the first suggests it doesn’t really matter what anyone wants, life happens anyway, whereas the other suggests that anyone can forcibly (re)shape their surroundings (think neo in the matrix).
i wonder what most famous people attribute their fame to. did things just seem to fall in their laps and snowball or did they have some goal that they worked for relentlessly? is it different for famous actors than it is for famous computer people or scientists? artists? middle managers?
i tend to associate more with the former philosophy. that the big moments in life are largely out of my control, so i don’t sweat them. i just toil in the interim, to be better prepared for what might happen next.
but if i’m just letting life happen, then how do i know what to do in the present?
perhaps toil is the wrong word. what i mean is that i’m trying to take what i know now and make it bigger (while having fun doing it). i want to refactor what i know. i’m envisioning a mold colony growing larger, spreading out, but also heading in some more promising (or more random) directions than others.
it’s just that some goals seem like brain surgery from the perspective of the mold colony. yes, the mold colony might become a brain surgeon someday, but it’s got a hell of a lot of spreading out to do first.


My only thought it this:
Nicole Kidman was just born Hot.. HOT!