i seem to expect that all university classes should be amazingly well taught and should totally change your life.

i must have gotten this from tv, but in real life, classes are taught by people and real people tend to be pretty messy.

but in my earlier post, i said, in not so many words, that i would rather suck goat balls than waste $2000 per class on an absolute moron, whose incompetence will surely cause me to despise the subject about which I’m supposed to be learning.

but there may be another solution.

(justin peers into his other personality)

is it possible that i could be nice?

maybe if i stopped expecting to be handed my education on a silver platter, i might find that I’d learn something *beyond* the scope of the class.

maybe if i approached my education as an active rather than passive thing and got involved creatively, i could remedy a sour situation.

meta analysis

hmmm. there is something unsettling about exposing my own self-criticism to the world. i intended it only to show how i was actively contemplating what in an earlier post came across as unabashed dogma. but now that it’s all hanging out there in the open, it makes me sounds false and weak. but maybe i think i seem false and weak because i identify with the male heterosexual gender, and all my life i’ve been conditioned by society to be strong and unwaveringly confident…

meta analysis mockery

…when all i want is to be able to cry!